I don't feel don't see don't love don't have anything wrong but what is wrong?
2002-02-24 6:36 p.m.
Hey d-land, glad so many of you think i am pretty.
Last night was really long i stayed up the whole night, man that can drive a person crazy even though i like staying up i see and hear some weird thingers at night. Then you get paranoid and think someone is trying to break in and you fig out it is just our imagination.
I couldn't go on the internet till 4:59 because my brother was sleeping with this one guy they both passed out on my brothers bed. It scared me when i found them on there. He didn't leave till like 3:45 but i had to wait till my brother was in deep sleep to go on the internet.
I went to my room at 8:00 so i wouldn't get in trouble for being up all night, those convo usually suck. I didn't have to go to church so i slept in. I didn't have a dream which was sort of frighting. I hate when i don't have dreams because when i wake up i feel so empty.
I woke up to the sound of my mom screaming at me because i was still asleep at 3:45.
I took a bath found out i had my period which sucks because it was late and when i am late it hurts a lot worse. I feel like someone keeps hitting me with a baseball bat down there.
I wish that feeling would go away.
My dad and my step mom dropped by while i was doing my hair i felt bad because i didn't stay outside that long i was in too much pain and couldn't walk that much so i went back inside after a couple of seconds.
My day has been really short and i don't really feel like myself right now, i feel like another person but it is still my body but not the same mind from, maybe this is just the side of me that isn't pretend that isn't happy or sad 24/7, i have absolutely no idea who this is. Maybe i am just paranoid i don't know all i know is that this doesn't feel like right or like me.
last five entries:
goodbye - 2002-03-17
"Sorry" chappy 1 (my short story i've been working on) - 2002-03-15
dark and light love, what does that mean, is it a ridial that we aren't supposed to think about, hmm i don't know so i don't expect you to - 2002-03-15
back on the road of life its a careless road but it has many bumps and turns who knows where you'll stop - 2002-03-12
seeing you - 2002-03-12
