I can't rember ever going there with YOU are you madd or just on somthing
2002-02-23 1:38 p.m.
Hi people of D-land. Isn't it just a tiring day?
Last night was cool. When i got home i walked in a joey, rock chick, and enelly were all in my kitchen. (friends, my only friends in church)
We had burger king but since i still had to get read i had to eat my whopper in 4 big bites.
After i ate i got read for church, i did my hair it looked like crap but whatever, i went got dressed and we left. (it was still raining, it was raining all day yesterday and still is)
We got in and we went and prayed a little then went to class, they asked for pray thingers i told them some for my friends, as soon as i said them Sammy just jumped out of the circle and started saying all this bs about me and my friends, then he threw me getting expelled in my face and blamed it on my friends. I so wanted to slap him so hard. I swear if i see him in church on Sunday and if i see him i swear i am going to tell him off. (he wouldn't let me talk during the class)
Anyway we were praying and since i was so mad i wasn't getting the full swing which got me more mad. They had this thing for the kids where they were going to pray for us, they placed oil in our hands and yelled some stuff in our face. I was the only one not feeling it but Lisa got behind me and they told me to raise my hands so i did and as soon as i did my heart got really heavy and i just started to bawl. Lisa was praying for me or should i say with me for like 20 or 30 min and it felt great. Thought in the middle of it my short attention span kicked in and i stopped listioning for a little while, i felt bad.
After that they asked us to pray for our parents or whoever was praying for you before i felt bad because i didn't want to leave my mom or Lisa alone so i went to Lisa hugged her and stared to pray for her then in the middle of it i touched my mom and started to pray for her, she turned around and hugged me and started to laugh/cry in my arms and then she fell i wasn't strong enough to hold her, i got on the floor and just took her hand in mine and she woke up. We cried together and stuff and it was nice. I think i liked being that close to my mother and not be fighting with her.
last five entries:
goodbye - 2002-03-17
"Sorry" chappy 1 (my short story i've been working on) - 2002-03-15
dark and light love, what does that mean, is it a ridial that we aren't supposed to think about, hmm i don't know so i don't expect you to - 2002-03-15
back on the road of life its a careless road but it has many bumps and turns who knows where you'll stop - 2002-03-12
seeing you - 2002-03-12
